你真的了解我吗,你真的爱我吗,口口声声说我是你的家人所以我了解你,不,你错了,你完全没考虑过我的感受。
你骂我,说我自私,不要脸,说我好的不会,坏事全有,可你有没有想过,为什么,为什么我会如此,难道我天生就会吗,我想解释,可你甩脸砸上了门。
我只是冷眼看着。当我把门锁上时,我的泪流了下来。
背靠在门口,“砰”的坐了下去,我的双手扶上了头,我不敢大声哭因为我知道那很懦弱,这是我在小学四年级后第一次哭,因为当时有个小男孩告诉我,你这样很丑,从此,我便不再真心哭过,当然有时会假哭。那以后我学会保护自己,我知道在什么时候该哭,什么时候不该哭。
渐渐地,我不容易哭了,我坚强了,我会主动出击,谁欺负我我不会让他好过。
可这一切看在眼里外人眼里是不好的,是坏,不是保护自己的方法,遭人厌弃,我当然不在乎,我回了家你们也没说什么。只是对看了我一眼罢了。
可是后来我才知道,你们更本不关心我的事,而是在乎你的学习成绩好不好,会不会给我们丢人。呵呵。当我知道是我笑了,可是内心如绞肉般疼,呵呵,我真可悲,原来这么久,呵呵。
可是后来你们说是为了我好,我们是想激发你,让你好好学习,我信了,并且从内心原谅了他们。认为他们很了解我。可是我却一次又一次的发现,我错了,他们一点也不了解我,他们是会凭自己的主观意识做事,毫不在乎别人的感受。他们说我不好,样样都不行,可在别人眼里为什么我是个宝,而在你们眼里却是根草,你们从来都说自己是世界上最好的父母,但是我见过比你们好的就不下10的,还的事不承认。你们骂我我忍了,说我不好我也忍了。可会死你们知道我为什会变坏吗,是因为环境呀,人在不同人,教师,教室,学校和教育的不同,是不一样的。难道你们都没听过“孟母三迁”吗?
可你们说的确是,就是你自身的原因,还狡辩。我考差了,哭了,你们说,哭,哭,哭再哭就打死你。我又考差了,这次我不哭了,只是低头看着你们。而你们又说,只知道看,你一点羞耻心都没有。
你们想要我怎么办,大笑吗?
你们不爱我不了解我,打我骂我,还自称了解我,连我想让你们了解我,心平气和的谈一次你们都会嫌烦,你们知道什么,又了解什么?
You (really) know me well.
Do you really love me, say repeatedly repeatedly said I was your family so I know you
No, you are wrong, you never consider my feelings.
You call me, call me selfish, shame on you, I will not say good, bad all
But you have not thought about, why, why am I so,
I was born to do, I want to explain, but you left face smashed the door.
I was just watching. When I locked the door, my tears streaming down
In the back door, “bang” sit down, my hands to the head,
I can't cry because I know that's weakness,
This is the first time I cry in the fourth grade primary school, because there was a small boy told me, you ugly, from now on, I will no longer really cried, of course sometimes snivel. Then I learn to protect ourselves, I know at what time the cry, don't cry what time the.
Gradually, I don't cry easily, I love, I will take the initiative,
Who bullied me. I won't let him.
All this look in the eyes of outsiders is not good, bad, not protect their own way, being rejected, of course I don't care, I went home and you didn't say what. Just look at me.
But I know, you don't care about me, but about your grades are good, will give us. Ha-ha. When I know I laughed, but the heart such as meat like pain, oh, woe is me, for so long, ha ha.
But then you said to me, we are trying to inspire you, let you Study hard, I believe, and from the heart to forgive them. Think they know me very well. But I have once again found, I was wrong, they don't know me, they will do things with their subjective consciousness, do not care about the feelings of others. They said I was not good, everything is not, why in the eyes of others, I is a treasure, but in your eyes is a grass, you have all said they are the best parents in the world, but I have seen more than hello is not under 10, also do not admit. You call me I could, say I am not good I could. Would you know why I would be worse than it is, because of the environment, people in different people, teachers, classrooms, schools and education, is not the same. Have you never heard of “mengmusanqian”
Can you say it is, why you own, also argued. I was poor, cry, you cry, cry, cry, cry again'll kill you. I was poor, I do not cry, just looked at you. And you said, just watching, you do not have a sense of shame is.
You want me to do, laugh?
You don't love I do not know me, hit me and scold me, also claim to understand me, even I want to let you know me, be in a calm mood to talk about a time you will be tired,
You know what, know what?
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